My baby

I have decided to stick with Ladybug Ladybug, and with a pat on my own back, beaming with pride like the announcement of a new baby, I gladly state, The End.  The reviews have been good.  I reread it and I cant believe I actually wrote this master piece!  I tend to be my own worst critic but I really think its good, and I'm not the only one, thanks to all my editors and critics, thanks for your honesty!  Its like Ive given birth to the baby I thought Id never have (again).  I so fucking proud of me!!

A letter to my love

I'm sorry I have neglected you
I'm sorry I haven't come to you in months, counting close to a year, maybe it has been already.
I have missed you
I have thought of you
Craved you
NEEDED you
Even had my hand on the door knob to go to you, but I turned back
Because I was afraid, of you and my reaction to you
I know I need you, my body needs you, my mind craves you, my dreams are even of you
When I would be with you daily my whole mood was uplifted
When I visited you daily my body would be exhausted, my mind exhilarated
You. Were. My. Drug.
The other day I got a glimpse of you
Your feel
Your effect on me
And it was not the same
I shouldn't have stayed away so long
But I'm back, I promise promise (you cant break those)
I will have to readjust to you
but be patient with me, love
I will be at the 3 mile point again without troubles in no time!!
Ive missed you my pavement!!!

And my ass is starting to spread.

Laalaa

Your desires are close to the surface now. You're like a snake shedding its skin -- somewhat vulnerable, but ready to shuck off anything that inhibits or restricts you. That might mean purging your wardrobe of items that don't fit or don't look right, showing a bore the door or just ridding yourself of a bad habit that holds you back. You're feeling rebellious and ready to rock, but it's no pose -- these impulses come from a deep and trustworthy place.

Im not to be toyed with!!

Im tired of being patient and understanding, I have run out of both.  You dont realize you are pushing to a point of absolute no return.......or maybe you do.

Just say YES!!

Is getting to sleep a problem for you? Are you having even more trouble staying asleep once you finally get there? Hold off one more day before checking with the doctor or trying a heavy-duty pharmaceutical solution. You need to solve the issue you haven't quite put to bed, so to speak. If it's a financial matter, get out your tools and get to work. You just might be able to put an end to your insomnia.

I like the drugs that put me to sleep, they make my nights dreamless.  My dreams suck.

Im a CLASSIST!!! *sad face*

Ok, so I'm doing my Census Enumerator thing.  I have been visiting homes of those people who did NOT send in their census, shame on ya'll!!! But thank you for this job. Pay is decent and I make my own hours so I get to work around my "job".  Sad thing is I make more in one week working for the census than I make in two weeks working were I currently do now.  We get paid by the hour, for our mileage (I get lost a lot), and reimbursed for phone calls (my crappy prepaid) and other essentials.  I see what they mean by government waste.

When I got my first assignment it was for a very affluent area.  Lots of gated homes, double glass doors, that fancy round about driveway.  So I thought to myself ok good, decent folks to interview, for the most part, they were assholes!! Some refusals, a few well if you have to you have to's.  The middle class neighborhood was the easiest part I had, I was offered glasses of water and tea, to come in and sit down, real nice people.

Then I got my third assignment, a trailer park.  I drove by the first day and just looked at them, I saw a wild pack of dogs, broken down cars and mobile homes (I think people live in them).  I think I even saw a possum or big ass rat, or maybe it was a cat.  It scurred me.  So I decided to pass them up and leave them for another day.  

*Another Day*

I drove into the park avoiding potholes big enough to swallow my tire.  I look for numbers on the "units"  they aren't on all the homes, I gather all my material get out my car and walk from one end of the park to the other hoping to find a number or person to speak with.  Yaaaay a number!  The porch had a locked fence, do I go in??  What if the wild dogs live here??  I'm brave I can do this!!  I unlock the gate hold tightly to my bag, in case I gotta run like hell.  I knock on the door, a Hispanic gentleman answers the door.  I introduce myself and he doesn't speak much English, sleeping through 2 years of Spanish in high school and barely passing it in college actually comes in handy.  On to plan Si (cute huh??) Hola me llamo Lisa.  Necesitamos contar a las personas donde viven.  He answers back....HUH!!?  I talk better than I listen.  He sees the confusion in my eyes and speaks English to me, which is far superior to my Spanish.  We get through the interview, he is very friendly, at the end I ask for his number for the census, what number he asks, your pin number I want your money. 

The next house was the manager, this is where my stereotyping kicks in, a toothless, what teeth she did have were blackish answered the door.  Shes yelling at kids behind the door "Lillian get out that kitchen", my heart is in my throat, I want to run from toothless.  I introduce myself and she is actually very pleasant, I feel bad for thinking badly of her. She offers help with the vacant homes and tells me about the ones in prison.  I continue my walk and search of numbers, everyone that sees me greets me in a friendly manner, all willing to help me with information, I get 4 houses done at one lady's home.  People wave to me and ask how my days going and if I need help finding anything.  I leave the park begging for forgiveness for being a classist.  I have to go back tomorrow to finish up the houses where no one was home.  I have three people willing to walk me up and down the road and help me find the people.  Everyone was really nice.  Even the pack of dogs were friendly, and that possum/rat was a cat.....I think...well, I hope cause it rubbed up against me.

Libra

Though you may feel like monopolizing someone's company today, it's a good idea not to get too greedy. Let them have their fun for now -- they're sure to come back to you sooner or later. Trying to keep them by your side all day and night just cuts down on the amount of fun you could be having on your own. Set them free and watch them come right back to you soon.