Everything

Tears for water

“Im a prisoner of words unsaid.

Just lonely feelings locked away in my head.

I try myself further everytime I stay quiet.

I should start to speak, but I stutter and stay quiet.

And now I’ve made my own hard bed inside this prison of words unsaid.”
 
-Alicia Keys
 
I refuse to hurt you with my words.  I can't allow myself to cause you any pain.  You will never realize how deeply I honestly do love you.  I am sorry but I no longer in love with you and I want my freedom from you, let me go.  Dont make me speak the words that will kill your heart.  Just go.  Please.....

10/11/10

It was suppose to be such a wonderful day.  It wasnt.  It was fucked up on so many levels.  Started with tears and ended the same damn way.  No better way to end the night but with a threesome..........Sailor Jerry, as well as Ben and Jerrry (funky monkey).  Can it get worse?  Seriously....can it get worse???

when I say I am ok, I want someone to look me in the eyes, hug me really tight and say to me "I know that you are not".